It's that time

It's that time of year again... I am stressed.. Finals are looming, Christmas is here and pocketbooks get tighter around the end of the year it seems.

I know I shouldn't stress over such things, and that God will take care of me, even in the smallest of ways! But right now, these are the things that are troubling my mind.

1. Finals - a test and a project... the rush to get them finished, the pressure to do well
2. Money - (Hunter) will Hunter start getting instate tuition, will be be able to find an on campus job that will work with ROTC?
3. Money - (Me) I will be going home for the holidays, and because of the way my rent is due, I will be paying rent twice, within two weeks of each other. I know this will be fine and I can do it... but draining my paycheck two weeks in a row, scares me.
4. Work - things are stressful here, for a number of unmentionable reasons.. Part of me loves this place so deeply... but the other part, is so terribly ready to move on.
5. Jobs - Will I be able to get a job out of here? (Of course, see?? Meaningless worries)
6. PhD - Hurry up and wait. I applied in June, and will hopefully find out whether or not I am accepted in February. What a process... yet, I am rejoicing in the waiting.
7. Friends - I visited a dear friend of mine while home for Thanksgiving... she is so sick, so broken, so battered. Won't you pray for her? It was the worst I have seen her these past five years... and it is so hard to talk about. However, I am thankful that I was able to see her, even if it was just to hold her while she shook from the pain. Lord, bless her.. comfort her... keep her.

Praise God from whom all blessings flow. It is a charmed life we lead. We are so blessed... but sometimes we can't even think to shift the focus off of ourselves and to the Father. What selfish lives we lead.

Lord,
Help us to turn to you in times of trouble. Help me to most of all trust you in ALL things. Help me to turn to you, rather than myself or anyone else. Teach me to be selfless, and deny the selfish nature of humanity. Lead me Lord.
Amen.

Here's hoping

Today I checked my 'Crimson Mail' - my email for the University of Alabama and I got an email that I believe to be in error.

I've been trying desperately to find a job, as I need a way to pay for school and my housing. I haven't had much luck.. but I am leaving that up to God. It's tough however, watching my bank account dwindle, knowing bills are coming up.

Yesterday and email was sent out to all new and returning GTA's about orientation. I applied to be a GTA, but was denied. So, of course I feel that I have received this email in error, but man would it be nice to get that position. Ok, so, what is a GTA? GTA is graduate teaching assistant, I would teach undergraduate courses and work for the math department while they pay for me to get my graduate degree. To have gotten this would a be a dream come true.

So, the lady who sent out the email is out of the office until Monday. I replied and asked if my status had been changed, so here's hoping! haha

But, I'm not going to get set on this. God has a plan, and He will take care of me!